Just feel like writing

THis weekend has been busy and lazy at the same time. First I got on the scale and it said 173.4!!! I havent even had time to work out this week except 1 day! I finished my application for the state board to go ahead and start my supervision hours towards LCSW (licensed clinical social worker) which is basically a psychiatrist without the RX pad. It is going to take me two years of 1hr weekly supervision, and I have to have a total of 200hrs before I can take the LCSW test. I also had to work on thursday for 1assessment and on friday for 3 assessments. Im not complaining, it got me out of the house and am getting paid $85 for each one! I have to admit I was gone all friday night from 6p-midnight and I came home at 9:30 to pump, and it was really hard to leave my baby Dreycin after I pumped. I couldnt wait to come home and cuddle with him. That night he didnt sleep very well for his daddy, but the night before had slept 9hrs (thats from the beginning of the feeding) on & off, and didnt really wake up until almost 6am! His naps have definitely gotten shorter here lately, he'll sleep for 45min-1hr and wake up for a little while, usually because of gas and then go back to sleep for a little bit longer. Dreycin has just recently started holding his rattles and even has a little blanky that has a rattle on it that he will cuddle with when he goes to sleep or is in his swing. He has been sticking his hands in his mouth so much after he eats that i think he is gagging himself, i dunno it could be the reflux but he's never thrown up this much before! We are having to put bibs on after feedings. Dreycin is drinking strictly out of Dr Brown's bottles and the twins. Avent's just push too much air into him, and he is already gassy enough! I usually pump in the morning after the 6or7am feeding so that derek has a bottle to feed him when he gets home for bonding! i really dont know how much he is getting when i feed him, but when he gets a bottle is usually 90-100cc's which is = 3oz or a little more. He still is way too attached to his green soothie.

So we are working on planning our first family vacation, to Panama at the end of March for about 11days. Alot of people are probably wondering why we wouldnt go to Texas but my family in Panama still has not gotten to meet the love of my life, Derek or my baby Dreycin. Back when Derek and I got married my family submitted applications for visas not just once but twice and were denied. So this is it we are going and sometime this month we are going to take Dreycin to apply for his very first passport. Its sad for me to say that the last time I was home was Dec 2005, and in the last few years what has stopped us has been the military, school, and $. What has helped me to be so diverse and grateful was that my mother took me home to see reality outside the "american bubble" and I want to do the same for Dreycin. We are planning on renting a beach house on Playa Coronado for about a week, which the beach will be about 200ft from our back door. Derek has been dying to go on a beach vacation so he is on board! We'll eventually go to Texas prob sometime this summer. But for now this is my priority to see my grandparents.

here are some recent pics, and notice my freezer and deep freezer are beginning to get very full from my supply that I have built up. I guess you can say im pretty darn proud!!