32wks2days

Today was my 32wk appointment, and after being in Florida for 5days I knew I would be tipping the scales from all the food we ate! I only gained 4lbs, but at this point I wonder if some of it is fluid from traveling in the car? First we had our 8am appt with my high risk doc for repeat ultrasound to view heart and growth. Baby Bronson came in weighing appx. 5lbs 9oz, about the 80th percentile. We talked about a delivery date no later than 39weeks, and in 4wks we will be discussing his size/growth and if I may need a csection. booooooooo, i dont want a csection and for my little family that will make it so much harder on us. After we left that appt I was kind of bummed about all the csection talk, but excited that Bronson is healthy and we only have about 7wks to meet him! I had my regular OB appt at 11am, went to that by myself were we started weekly NST's to monitor Bronson......of course he didnt want to put on a show so that earned us 40min on the monitors! His heart rate was fluxuating from 140's to low 160's when he would move or I would have a contraction (which only happened a few times). So weekly, only 7more weeks which puts us at the end of August near this mama's bday Aug 22! Im really hoping that since this is subsequent pregnancy my body will know more of what to do and I wont have to be induced bc of his growth or gestational hypertension, plus Im so much more active with Dreycin keeping me busy!
Derek and I have really been talking alot about more kids after Bronson, and we are undecided. But I have decided that I will get a paraguard (5yr copper IUD) to be able to reevaluate once at least Dreycin is in school. In the back of my mind though, I keep thinking that maybe God has blessed me with two healthy boys, boys that are more unlikely of being predisposed to having lupus, having to go through what I have which I wish upon no one. (historically women are more likely to have lupus) So maybe we should stop while we are ahead. The decision is still an open door, the other reasons I worry are age, is after 30 with lupus really a wise idea, given my history of gestational hypertension.....and of course the main factor what kind of stability, financial state will we be in if and when we decide to have another. There is no feeling, like the feeling of being pregnant carrying life, being a mom something that I never knew if I would be able to do. For that reason makes me want to pop out 4kids, well and I was an only child. I guess only time will tell. But for now Im surrounded by Derek, Dreycin, Bronson, and pepper......aggghhhh so much testosterone!!!

I mentioned earlier we were in Florida for vacation with my Aunt Deborah(dad's sister) and her bunch from Oklahoma. We try to get together at least 1x a year where ever Derek and I are close to. Last year we took an extended weekend in St Louis, the year before they came up to Kentucky for a week. So this year well actually about 1month ago we started to plan for a week of VK in Florida. I came across this hotel that was green friendly, more of a nature based lodge that was near the gulf of mexico and only 2hrs 15min from where we currently are living in Albany, ga. We went to the beach every day, a location called Alligator point. It was beautiful, relaxing, and the best part was that there were no tourists. Definitely the place to be if you enjoy nature, food, beaches, and somewhat seclusion to the world. The boys went crab hunting, and also found tons of sand dollars hermit crabs and shells. Dreycin loved playing in the sand, and at the water's edge. He really wasnt a fan of going into the ocean. I really didnt venture out either because I was afraid I would fall, and those waves can be pretty forceful, I was perfectly happy playing with Dreycin at the edge of the ocean! Did I mention we ate, and ate, and ate.....yes that was probably Bronson's favorite part! We also took a boat tour of Wakulla Springs saw tons of alligators, turtles, birds, fish, and a manatee. There is nothing like spending time with family, and the best part was seeing how Dreycin became so loving & attatched to my family! My cousin Bailey was great with him, and they were little cuddle monkeys together! Today when I had my appt, Derek and I left and not a peep came out of Dreycin when we left him with my uncle Brian! Of course when they left tonight I was crying and Dreycin was crabby for about 2hrs after they left. We have been so blessed to have so many of our family and friends visit us here in the shitake hole, but I just get so sad when they leave :( We have one more visitor coming before Bronson's arrival, one of my best girlfriends from high school Jgray. She is actually coming because Derek is being forced to go to Paris Island, South Caroline for rifle range for 1wk....When I found out he was going (last week) I started contemplating who can I get to come stay with me (just in case) while Derek was gone, and she was #1 candidate because she is a teacher and is OFF!

Itinerary for the following week: start and finish potty training. I have a little boy who is telling me when he goes pee pee and poopie! wish us luck, we are doing the 3day method and going straight to big boy underwear! Will post pics of VK soon ;)