Meatless meditation

Im not committed to being a vegan just quite yet, but after watching two very captivating movies on dairy and meat consumption in the US, it's got me leaning towards a plant based diet. 1 reason I can't say I'm vegan is that I still love to add honey to my teas, and baking/cooking with honey. Honey is an animal by product which in veganism is a no-no! And who says that 1x a month I won't grill me up, well have Derek grill me a nice juicy bison burger! I can give up meat for a majority of my life, but I can't say I won't break the rules every know and again. If your American eating ass hasn't seen Forks over Knives, food inc, or Food Matters, you need to watch it NoW. Before cancer and disease overtake your life. We watched all these movies on netflix. I even have Derek willing to give up meat, I mean after all he at the age of 31 has already been diagnosed with hypertension and needs change. So far we have had no dairy milk in our house since about November, we do not ise butter or eat ice cream. We use earth balance, and so delicious coconut ice cream. The only thing Derek says will be tough for him is cheese, and maybe coffee creamer. We'll see. This also means Dreycin will not be eating meat either, bring on the beans baby. For the last month or so, i cook up a 1lb bag of beans every week in the crockpot and that is a major food in our meals for the week. We ALL, almost everyday have a rice bowl(think qdoba or chipotle) daily. I even got Dreycin to eat Kale this week!!!!!!
After watching these movies two quotes have really resonated with me
1. Let thy food be thy medicine (hippocrates)
2. You need to eat to live, not live to eat.
I look at this whole experience with Bronson differently now, I feel as if maybe he has saved my life and my family's life. As for the blood in the stool, it's happened 2x since the beginning of February. I'm letting go and letting God. Bronson is happy, healthy, growing, and weighs a little over 20lbs!!!
I also had another first today, a mediation class. Mediation is supposed to be good for the soul, immune system, and overall health. I figure I needed to learn to "shut down" my
mind. I am the person that always has lists in my mind, did i do this I need to do that, oh I forgot to......I mean what person doesn't do that. The difference with other people from me is that with lupus I need to steer clear from stress, so my awesome yogi teacher was offering a 3hr workshop and I decided to sign up. Over the last few days I was getting kind of worried that I wasn't going to be able to meditate or sit still for that long, and I didn't have to. We were taught about mediation in a circle on the floor on our yoga mats with blankets, blocks, then we started to practice what we learned. I did pretty well for my first time, and this will also be a must for my current lifestyle. Overall your capability to be "in the presence" is required. That was a struggle for me, having thoughts about the kids at home, oh my hip hurts, I need to go pee! No matter what I did the thoughts tried to find a way into my mediation. My goal is to find a mantra that speaks to me, that will have meaning for my daily life. And of course to be able to mediate for longer than 10seconds without some thought of my crazy lists invading my me time!!!!

Here are some pics of D, my valentines day magazine choices, and a few cute photos I saw floating around on FB :)