17wks tomorrow:)

Yesterday Derek, my mom and I all went to run some errands. 1 of which included ordering my ECO glider from Pottery Barn Kids...by far will be the most expensive thing we buy for the baby but its comfy and the slipcover (that is also 100% organic) can be dry cleaned which most of the rocking chairs out there dont offer. It will be here around mid July which Im VERY excited about~ We also went and bought some maternity shirts as you can see in the pic to right, my regular shirts will probably be too short soon?! My mom seems to think im carrying my pregnancy in my hips and bust. Derek also had a mini shopping spree....i told him you mine as well buy stuff now because after the baby is born it will be ALL about the BABY (we will both probably neglect to buy ourselves stuff over buying for the baby, at least that is what I saw my parents do). In the meantime my mom has been helping me organize/cleanup our house to prepare for baby. Honestly since we moved in, in February I havent done a whole lot because I was so tired...and sick! I really wish I had my mom here 24/7 especially after the baby is born! Last night I had the weirdest dream....i was yelling at a little boy to get away from the snakes and let them go. this little boy was grabbing the snakes by the end of their tails. the funny thing is that i guess since we dont have names picked out yet i was calling the boy pepper?? After I got up i told Derek to please look through the name book because we desperately needed to pick out names.....he's the one that doesnt like any of the names that i like. My mom looked on the internet and it said that if the mom was dreaming about cuddly animals vs strange creatures either means lovable or uncertain. Obviously im very uncertain about this new baby coming into our lives, but excited about it and definitely accepting! anyways im already asking my mom to book her next ticker to come visit :( ill be sad when she leaves! The day ended with some grocery shopping at Whole foods.

16wk3d

Yesterday i had two appointments one with my high risk Ob and one with my Rheumatologist. Baby's heartbeat was about 148 and we did not get to find out the sex:( but we will find out in about 2wks at our anatomy scan!! right in time for the showers when we come home!! My mom had just gotten here at noon, Derek and her came by my work picked me up and we were on our way. Basically everything is going well with baby, my measurements are good but he had to give me another RX for zofran, he said hopefully it will ease up a little bit now that im further along...but tuesday was awful lunch and dinner came up and it was disgusting. We talked about down syndrome testing, and derek and i decided that we wouldn't do it at this point due to the risk i already carry, but an amnio also increases chance of miscarriage. Derek's exact words were "No matter what we will raise this child." My rheumatologist at this point is staying conservative with my medications even though my lupus is acting up, i swear it has a mind of its own. He wants me to go parttime, but im not quite that willing yet, i still have to save up a little to either stay home for 12wks with no pay or stay home permanently to raise the baby. He said limit my walking to not put pressure on my joints, but said my yoga 3X a week is ok. Im just taking tylenol to control some of the swelling and joint pain...im also loving the warm baths. After all our appointments I came back to work to pick up my car and we went to eat at California pizza kitchen.....which was really good. Derek had this desser that looked so good, but i just knew it would make me sick so i didnt even try it. Anyways, im praying and hoping that I will start to feel better lupus and pregnancy. Its sometimes frustrating because some women are like Ive never felt better....and im like can my body just stop aching....but its all for a miracle at the end.

PS my mom(and dad) brought me lots of gifts....which included awesome maternity clothes from the GAP, they are so cute compared to what i have seen here in KY at the 1maternity store they have! she also bought me a beautiful new bible, its lavender cover is lined with silver and she had my name engraved in it. its beautiful. last night we ready from matthew, about worry...

Happy Bday Avocado

So today the baby is the size of an avocado....and yes i did eat guacamole today:) From now on I will begin posting belly pics only on the blog, unless you see me and can rub my buddha belly....keep in mind i had a little extra tire around my midsection, but have also lost 10lbs so who knows?? I can no longer hold in my tummy, and yes can still fit into my prepregnancy jeans since they are low fitting, but I dont want to wear anything tight because it makes me nauseated!!! This pic was today right after i took a shower and had rubbed my new Palmer's oil all over my belly, back, and boobs(which have outgrown every bra i have)....and after my great husband said to me this weekend what is that on your legs (varicose veins), and did you know you have stretch marks on your back? So we went to buy new bras and I got the new BEST oil on the market at motherhood maternity!

Other exciting news is that last night laying in bed I couldnt go to sleep and felt FLUTTERS, the only way i can describe is like tickling in your tummy or butterflies:) I layed there for an hour or so feeling them, and then was also woke up by them today!!! Last night I was also able to let my grandmother and Aunt in Panama hear the baby's heartbeat which has stayed around 148-151. They were so happy, I cant wait to take a family vacation to the beaches in Panama(which is long overdue). Im so excited that my mom will be here Wednesday to spend 6days with us!! I'll write on Wednesday after the appt;)

it's been a while

Good Morning,

So the past 3weeks my daddy was here, cooking cleaning and running all my errands. It was so nice to just rest when I came home. While he was here he was able to go see his brother Adrian Ray Doss, Jr. who he had not seen in almost 21years. Im sure now he wants to live here, but then what would happen when Derek and I move back to Texas....i sure won't be driving to Kentucky all the time! We also went to Churchill Downs for a luncheon that I won tickets through my work, which included losing about $40 on the horse races and some really good food! But it was all fun! He also got to spend my first pre-mother's day with me. We went to church, then went and did my registry at Babies R Us, and then went to Havana Rumba , a cuban restaurant that would have been really good if the sickness wouldn't have hit. But i guess it wouldn't have been mother's day if i hadn't gotten sick!!!Im definitely looking forward to this 3day weekend with my hubby. We are planning NOTHING! On another note I can't believe that im going to be 16wks on Monday and im still suffering from the all day sickness, not to mention I havent gained any weight. Oh, but i can NO longer fit in my clothes because my little pooch. A matter of fact, my closet and I got in a huge fight this morning. When derek gets home he is going to think a tornado went through our bedroom. Im officially in my maternity clothes, and anything tight better stay away from me! Which is nice about wearing scrubs to work, but today I was trying to dress up a little for a function after work. Oh and my engagement ring was really tight this morning...so im only wearing the band. anyways, im looking forward to my mom being here on Wednesday for a week! She will get to go to our 16wk appt and see my belly pooch! and we will probably do some shopping :) its also been really cool to have the stork radio come home, and hear my baby's heartrate. I cant wait until i start feeling the baby move, and little flutters!!!!

I bought my first baby items, about 6layettes that are one size fits all. All of them are either beige or sage. One set is Winnie the pooh!! This month i get an extra paycheck, and im going to splurge on the Rockabye rocking chair Derek and I both fell in love with, its so comfy!! Oh and my mom found some of the rainforest collection, and diaper champ from Once Upon a child for like 1/2 off from what it would have been at Babies R Us! She got the swing and bouncer! Can't wait to buy more!!!!!

At Home Fetal Doppler

Late night

Derek and I had been sleeping like all afternoon. We woke up, were watching TV and i went to the bathroom, wiped and had light bleeding. I have never seen two men move so fast to get shoes on, get keys, etc. In the midst of me freaking out, crying alligator tears, my wonderful husband and dad rushed me to the UofL hospital delivery/triage. I threw up the whole way to the hospital, and it was pouring rain. it all happened so fast, i went to registration bypassed the ER and was wheeled upstairs. Once in triage the resident came in and explained that she would be doing an exam to check my cervix and then an ultrasound. the doc said that my cervix was long and closed. The ultrasound showed good movement from the baby and 160bpm. I was so relieved, and overcome with joy when i saw my baby's heart beating away on the ultrasound machine. Later on the Attending came in and reassured me that bleeding in pregancy happens to 25% of women. For me, i know WAY to much due to working in a hospital mother/baby unit and know that the numbers might be a little higher than that, but oh well me and baby are fine. The doc said they also found protein and blood in my urine, which at this point the protein is probably due to my lupus and kidneys spilling proteins. I had tried to get in to see my rheumatologist this week bc my OB had also recommended I see the rheumy due to finding protein in my urine, but with Derby, i wont be able to see him until monday at 11am. Can you believe Derby is like Xmas here in Louisville.....louisville basically stops to worship the Derby! Too bad im on bedrest and we couldnt make it to our first Derby this year....but there is always next year, and the next! In the meantime this AM i went to see Dr. Brown who was able to put me in a state of complete relaxation and take away some of the joint pain/swelling ive had for a while. for now it is REST for me, and the more I think about the next 6moths (WOW, only 6months left) I find myself leaning towards staying home with my miracle baby to cherish every moment.